YOO HOOO. Look who's back.

Okay, haven't been going school for the WHOLE week cause I was so bloody sick. Missed my friends, esp the girls. :( Missed lunch-ing. BOOO.

I've missed out soo damn much. I need to get back to school soon! And thanks for the people who have been so concerned about me. I spent so much on my medication. Sickening.

Anyway, have been much better after resting for so long. Think the antibiotics really did help. The torture is finally over! Can't imagine not getting any sleep until 5 am? The pain was so damn intolerable.

Ytd was me and baby's anniversary. Baby gave me a BIGGGGGG surprise. I was sleeping like a pig when baby came to my house and gave me sth which I have always wanted to buy. A chloe perfume! :)) Still dare to bluff me the night before, said he needed to eat lunch with his aunty. How i love my sweet little darling boy. Cutest to the max.

Something happened yesterday though, and I wanna Thank God. Thank you God for giving me such a great gift. Thank you God for changing my life. Sometimes I really wonder if I really deserve something so great, something which I never expect to happen to me. Someone to tolerate my temper, not even flaring up, not scolding me, not hitting me after all these hurtful stuffs I have done. I really never wanted anything else. He's just all I need God. Please don't ever take him away from me. I want him by my side till eternity. I want to go through ups and downs with this special person. I want to share all sorrows and happiness with him. I'm willing to go through any obstacles and hardships with him. All these while, I've been a selfish and lousy girlfriend. And it pains my heart even more to think why this great little thing of mine still stays by my side, not giving up on me.

Time after time, I took advantage, of him, of the situation, of everything. I just can't help myself from doing so. I know it's wrong, and it's because he pampers me too much. I'm pampered like how a mother pampers her baby. It's heavenly. Nobody pampers me this much. And tears are rolling down my cheeks as I think of all the bad things I have done to hurt him. All those hurtful stuff anyone could have ever said.

Tell me, how many people can tolerate it when someone says hurtful stuffs, how many people would just flare up and add fuel to the fire? I'm just so.. Insensitive. As I thought back, I asked myself: Does he even deserve this? No, he doesn't. So after being with him for so long, it's time I did something to make him happy, to make him my king. I will not remind ourselves of our horrible pasts. It's just gonna make us upset. And I don't want that. I want us to last forever.

God, answer my prayers. I have chosen how I want my life to be. And I have chosen who I wanna stay by forever. Make him mine. Till eternity. Don't let me lose him, don't let me lose my baby boy Lau Sheng Lian.

Happy Anniversary sweet love. All the golds and diamonds in the world are not enough to buy the love I have for you. All I care about is being with you forever. Your love warms my heart like the glow of a candle light in a midsummer night's dream. Never will stop loving you baby.


Anyway, here's a bigger news..

I know I've been missing. But guess what? My throat is infected with lotsa ulcers! YAYY! I can't eat, swallow, or drink. How great is that? Ok let me start by counting the number of damn ulcers I have there. Umm, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10.. Oh wait, I think I lost track. BAHHH. Serious throat infection.

And I would like to thank ONE person. My baby! He's been there like 100% of the time for me. Bringing me to the doctor, giving me my medications, making food for me(like bread soaked in water chesnut? Lol.), sayang-ing me, patting me to sleep, making me feel so loved.

I have never been loved like this all my life and today, I wanna say I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH BABY! You've changed my life. You made me realised there IS such thing as love. And love makes the world go round and round and round~

And there's another important thing which I have yet to rant about. There's this particular girl by the initial of C.T. PLEASE STOP BEING SUCHA KAYPO BITCH.

These are some phrases which I hope you remember.

"That kind of face, my school got alot."

Okay, still acceptable. Unlike someone who only has faces which are similar to those in the zoo. And eating bananas all the way.

"Becareful, don't get STDs."

HAHAHA. Eh please look who's talking. Someone goes to clubs and ______(Fill in the blanks,not sth good btw). Who knows what else happened. Nobody knows~ So please go for a fucking checkup in case you spread the LOVE.

"So fat still don't have any dressing sense"

BETTER THAN YOU BITCH. I don't wear what you wear cause it's DISGUSTING. And unlike you, you're all BONES. Omg. So damn disgusting la. Maybe I should borrow you one day if I don't have enough bamboo poles to hang my clothes.

"I despise her"

Oh you know sth? I despise you even more. I think you're sucha freaking disgusting slut, a bitch and a whore. Gross to the max.

"I've rarely hate anyone and she's the first person I hate this year"

o.O Now someone's an angel? Then there will be no more angels in the world. Whateverrr~ Oh wait, I'm an angel too! I've never hated anyone this much to the extend of wanting to strangle the shit outta her. You're the FIRST person. Aww.

"She's so ugly and fat in sec school"

Who knows how ugly you are then? Even so, it doesnt matter, cause you're still ugly now. And not just ugly ugly, damn bloody ugly. Your face IRKS me.


There's still lotsa stuffs which made me really HAPPY. So you know what motherfucker? Mind your own fucking business. I see a bimbo, (no, bimbos are at least pretty), a whore who's talking bad about me. And to there other two motherfuckers from my sec school, stop being motherfuckers. This is none of your business, unless you wanna get into her pants and continue saying such stuffs about me.

Lalala~ I hope you see this bitchface, I hope you liked it. Cause it's gonna be the same way which I feel. And don't worry, if your wish is to see me and Shane break off, DREAM ON. It's never gonna happen. Fuck you bitch asshole. You want war? Well, you started it. I'm just following up.

p.s Remember about the checkup thing. Or else it's too late.

Yesterday was the day! Finally no worries about working and shop shop shop! Woke up late and went down to eat with baby. Got an issue with the dress I'm wearing. Haha. Boo! Baby either says its too short, or it's a little revealing. Bahhhh~

Anyway we went off to bugis and started shopping like crazyyy. I think we both spent around 200+ yesterday? I bought so many stuffs! Yayy. Bought really nice lingerie. HEHE. And something elseee~ Baby wanted me to get it. Lalala~

Shopped from 2+ to 10? Certified as shopping queen and king. And baby shopped for a bag for around half an hour, in one shop. Beat his butt.

Came home bathed and played with Bogo. Played the wii till I almost whack the shit out of the machine. The game is so bloody irritating. Went back to sleep and Baby slept beside me.

Woke up in the morning and went out to eat and came back to sleep again. Pigs. Like totally. And bla bla bla bla. I'm not feeling well.


One last note..

I talked to friends about the camera thing, whether I should get it back or not. The usual answers I got was: Leave it, don't make things difficult for him.

How i wish I could, but nobody really understands deep down how I'm feeling. Am I always portrayed as the bad person? And I that bad to this extent? It would be easy to say, but so darn hard to execute it.

I really wish someone will understand me. Really. I feel so horrible. It's been so long and I'm still feeling this way. And yes, baby is making it up to me. I know how hard you try to satisfy me, love. I know how much you want me to let go of this issue, but it's a torture.

It's not that I wanna think of her. It's just that she was so arrogant and pretended as if nothing happened. What does she want? I'm so afraid one day she'll take you away from me again. I'm so afraid.

I wish I could have a brainwash.

BEE BEE BA BEE BOOO.

Today was sucky. I fell sick all of a sudden, having flu non-stop. And what's worse is that my sneeze kept making my falsies drop! Argh! You know how irritating it is?!

TAIN classes were hell. I couldn't concentrate cause of my stupid runny nose. Kept leaking, and sneezing. After going through the tutorials, I requested to go home. YAY. Took a cab home. Cannot tahan. Called my baby. And he didn't go work and came my house to accompany me.

He reached arounf 12 plus and I continued sleeping till 4 plus. Woke up and went to eat KFC. After which, shopped for Bogo's new cages and beddings. Went over Serangoon area and bought a BIG cage(I love it, and I'm sure Bogo loves it too.) Bought blueberry treats, and strawberry biscuits also. My hamster is so damn bloody pampered. And bf's jealous like a pig.

After buying, came home to install the new home and I bathed my darling Bogo. So cute. Staying still in the towel after bathing. As always. Awww~ I think Bogo loves his new home. HEHEHE. Played Wii and did sketchbook. And i'm not feeling well again. Vomited 4 times already. Sucks. Wonder what's the cause of it.

I hope I feel better tmr!

BAHHH, last post was damn emo. I'm glad everything's fine with me and baby love now. Wheee~ I forgive you darling. Muacks! You have your reasons, I understand. I know that you've been trying to get to me but you were so busy with the wedding stuffs. I'm sorry for not being able to understand you. I'm a lousy gf. :(

It was damn torturing not to have my bf by my side everyday. I'm lonely. Nobody hugs me, nobody says goodnight to me, nobody tucks me in to sleep. I'm sad! Went over to baby's house yesterday to spend the times we missed. I made baby a very happy boy ytd, didn't i? *Winks*

We went down to get some stuffs to eat, and then went up to eat cup noodles. And slacked on the bed, talking, and slept only at 3 plus am? So happy to be back in baby's arms hugging me to sleep once again. Woke up at 6.30 for his graduation thing today. Damn tired!

Got prepared and went to school. I sat all alone up in the centre. And I waited for baby's name impatiently name to be called up on stage. My heart was racing. I was so proud of him! When they called "Lau Sheng Lian", I was smiling and taking his photo. Baby, have I ever told you how proud I am of you?

After the torturing ceremony, after all those long grandma speeches, we were free to go! Ate like a greedy pig. Waited for baby to take pictures with his friends. Shavonne laughed at me cause she said I looked very pitiful holding the food and his stuffs, standing one corner and continued eating my stuffs. HEHE.

After everything, the whole bunch of us went outside school. Me, baby, sharon, kenneth, chron, jx, sk, leslie, elaine, shafie, matthew, joseph, joel, and i forgot who i missed out? We hanged out at KFC, deciding what to eat. And at last we decided to eat at T1. Me and sharon went to get our MCs. Haha. The doctor was quite fast though.

Went to find the guys and separated after a while. Me and baby took kenneth's car and accompanied him to his home to get changed. After that we went to do baby's running stuffs and 4 of us(sharon, me, baby, kenneth) stayed and slacked in the car deciding where to go. In the end we decided on the IMINDS thing at dhouby ghaut. But it was full. :(

So we ended up playing pool. Haha. Played till 10 plus and went home. Baby sent me home.. Thanks love. And sorry for throwing my tantrum again. But stop reminding me about my clothes. It's not like people can see my boobs or sth right? It's a tube. But I don't blame you and I know it sucks to know that people are peeping into the "treasure". haha. No matter what happens, I still love you.

I seriously.. hate my bf now. Lau sheng lian! DO you have any idea how pissed off I am with you now?! VERY! You LIED TO ME. YOU DIDNT CALL OR SMS ME LIKE YOU PROMISED ME YTD. I SO F HATE YOU RIGHT NOW! YOU MAKE ME WORRY LIKE A NUTCRACK.

HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHETHER YOU'RE ALRIGHT? IF YOU DONT EVEN BOTHER TO LET ME KNOW? YOU KNOW I COULD JOLLY WELL HECK CARE YOU AND GO AHEAD TO THAI DISCO WITH ALEX AND CO TONIGHT. ITS BECAUSE OF YOU, YOU YOU! I DIDNT CAUSE YOU FUCKING DONT BOTHER TELLING ME.

IM SERIOUSLY FUCKING FUCKINGGGGGGGG FUCKINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW. YOU ARE SO DEAD MEAT SHANE LAU. I WONT COOL DOWN SO EASILY. NOT TODAY, MAYBE NOT TMR, MAYBE FOR QUITE SOME TIME. YOU IRRESPONSIBLE AND SELFISH BF. I HATEEEEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUu! LIKE HELL.

GO AND DO SOME BLOODY REFLECTIONS TONIGHT. FUCKING PISSED OK! FUCKING HELL. NEXT TIME I'LL HAVE FUN AND IGNORE YOU. DONT COMPLAIN.

You know sth bf, I miss you like hell loads now! Booo. Bf's on his way to Malaysia now and I'm so missing him right now! I wished I could go to, but I have to finish my last week of work. :"(

Today worked till 2 and rushed home. Saw that pig still sleeping on my bed like a pig. Went to get changed and headed off to his place. Brought Bogo out today. And naughty bogo bite my earpiece. It broke! So damn angry with bogo. For a while. :) Went to eat at Delifrance and took a bus home. Uploaded my 3D stuffs on youtube and went to sleeep!

Today was amazing. I was happy, baby was happy. *winks* I loved it.

Woe up and helped baby pack his stuffs and walked with hima nd his family almost to their bus stop. Oh did I tell you guys I'm a big crybaby? HEHE. I cried again today cause I don't want him to goooo! BOO HOOO. And from today, I realised one thing; I need my baby in my life everyday.

Make sure you call me baby! Everyday webcam with me in Malaysia ok! Muack muack muack!

Sorry baby for making you so upset yesterday. All thanks to you, LOKE WEI XIONG. And stupid me, why did I even bother answering that bloody phone call?! Argh! So damn upset with myself.

It felt so great staying and spending time with my beloved boy these past 3 days. It was nice seeing him sleeping like a big baby every morning. We would get down to get our stuffs for cooking, or get our asses out of the house to get food. I cooked spaghetti today. But it was the 3 of us cooking instead. Me, sissy, and bf. Haha! And I emo-ed cause I felt that my spaghetti tasted like poo. :(

Watched Garfield and tried to sleep but I got the sudden crave for longans and rambutans with pineapples. So we went down to get them. Came home and played bubbles. Lol. Deprived childhood, I know. But I'm happy~ Neh neh ni poo poo.

Mummy came home early today and we chatted for awhile before she left for her classes. Went down to buy food with baby and I threw a little tantrum cause of SOMEBODY, some bitch who ruined my life. Really pisses me off.

Ate, watched tv, played, did my work. Oh, I forgot to mention that Baby gave me a surprise a few days ago. He left a card on my bed while I was in the kitchen.



How sweeet! I love my bf. Nobody can replace you baby understand! See this?! Don't always say that I say people never say you. HMPH. So unfair. My bf is very nice to me(except when he tickled me till I cried cause I can't breathe and made my lip bleed today) but I still love him. He carries me around when I'm lazy to walk HEHEHE. I'm a lazy pig.

Bf went home today cause he gotta work tmr. SO EMO! But he's still coming to stay tmr. YAYYYY! I wanna hug my bugly baby to sleep. Love you lot lot baby!

I hate periods.

Finally. The day has arrived. I'm gonna be out of the company in a week time! WHEEEEEEEEE!!! Omg do you all have any idea how HAPPY i am?! I signed my resignation letter today. The feeling was just.. I have to use the word ORGASMIC!

I was uber bored at work. The bloody sales and f**ked up customers. Burning all the happy cells in me. I was shouting and screaming and frowning all the way. Haha. Oops. It's like all the aunties come in and make a mess out of the clothes. Damn stress! Fold like dogs but in the end we also get nothing okay. I told a few aunties this when they made a mess.

Me(in chinese) : Aunty! You want what size tell me hor! Don't make my clothes so messy can anot?! We fold clothes very tired one leh!

Some said sorry, some ignored. _l_ NAH, EAT THIS LA.

Today both shane(s) came down! SO HAPPY!!!!! Bro came down as he passed by. And waited till bf came and they two were talking non stop. Hmph. After that baby slacked at my home for a while and left at 11 plus. :(

Tomorrow I have the bloody conversion. And i gonna go bugis to relief from 2-6. Wonder how working at Bugis feels like.. Maybe all the ah lianxzxxz and bengxzzx will come in worxzxz. Looks like i have to work till late again. Bloody hell. THINK WHAT? Luckily one more week only. I can finally REST! FINALLLY. Omg. I'm screaming inside. And my fingers are typing faster as I blog about it. It's excited for me too. HAHAHA. Ok need sleep. Nitee!

I cried like a baby last night. After blogging. I was whining to Baby about how I felt. After whining and whining and whining, I broke down. Yes, like a big fat baby.

Bf started hugging and sayang-ing me, wiping all away my tears. He said:" No matter what happens, you'll always have me ok? And I continued crying saying: "You go army already cannot hug me like that! *cry cry cry* And bf said: " Aww, ang gu gu la, I weekends come out and hug you whole day ok? Morning book out hug you until at night book in ok?"

We went back to our rooms and I still continued crying. Ha ha ha! Cause my dumbo bf kept on saying such sweet stuffs which made me even more sad thinking that he's gonna go to the army. And I started thinking of stuffs like: What's gonna happen if I lose him?

One thing I know, I'll never wanna lose you, Lau Sheng Lian! Let's work to our future together! Thanks for being there all the time, and not failing to make me happy. No words can explain how much I love youu! Muack muack muack! I love you bf, and my bestfriend. :)

Sometimes I really wonder why people do so much yet they get NOTHING but SHIT. Is God trying to tell us that we shouldn't help and let's all be bad peeps?

I feel very unwanted sometimes. And although I may look like I don't give a shit, actually I do. Just keeping silent. School is like just school time. Work is like just work time. Nothing special. Just sit there, do your work, and go home. Oh and not forgetting, talk with friends. Sometimes even maybe lunch together.

Yes, I do feel happy sometimes. But the feeling comes and goes every now and then. I wonder what people see me as. Really. It's really sad to see people drifting apart. I'm one of them. I sometimes feel that nobody no longer gives a shit about me though. Ha. Maybe it's just me. My attitude and everything. Maybe. I don't know cause nobody's telling me, so I can't change.

So to all friends out there, please tell me if you have anything against me or whatsoever cause I don't want people to despise me and me not knowing the reason. Yup.

And as for my bf wise, I'm really happy that we could have come this far wih all those nonsense stuffs happening every now and then. I hope people wouldn't be calling us superglue or whatever you name it. Cause he's gonna go army very soon and that means I wouldn't have time to spend with him anymore. :(

I just want my baby no matter what. Cause I know he's always the best to me. I love you pooot pooot baby.

And lastly, I don't wanna be nice anymore. I shall stop doing things for people who don't appreciate the stuffs that I do. Goodbye.






p.s Have I mentioned that my hamster is the cutest thing ever on earth? Fat and hairy like a ball which sleeps like almost anywhere. It slept on my sofa. Aww. Cute little Bogo. And Bogo does nothing but eats and sleeps ( like me )<--typed by my bf, and forcing me not to delete it. He doesn't care whether you poke him when he's asleep. All he want is his dreamy sleep~ Bogo is a lazy pig. I love Bogo!

Yesterday was such an enjoyable day. Really.

1stly: School wan freaking slack. Freaking.

Went for TAIN classes and presented like one idiot. After that we had our free time. Practically doing nothing except for surfing the net and msn-ing.

After TAIN, went to eat with the girls and some guys. Lab-ed after that. Went for ITPM classes. Was there for less than an hour. And I was dismissed cause my work was done. Lol.

Took a bus home. Slept while waiting for bf to come over.

2ndly: Went to KTV with mum and uncle and bf.

At first I didnt feel like going. But I thought it was gonna be nice trying to spend time with them. Met mum n uncle at amk ktv.

Sang many many songs. Mum was high cause she drank. Kept asking me n bf to order alcoholic drinks also. Haha. But I ordered a mango juice instead. Bf irdered fruit punch. After that bf went home while I went home to bathe, play Bogo and sleeeep~

Today worked a half morning and came to bf hse cause he's cooking~ Wheeeeee! So nice. I love bf! Muack!

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♥ Turns a year older on 27 Nov
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