.Friday, July 31, 2009 ' 8:59 PM Y
What is wrong with this blooody blogger? Today is a fucking fucked up day.
Anyway, ytd after work went to meet my girls and the feeling was freaking orgasmic(Haha) Only that darla came along also, and that makes him our sister. HEHEHE.
Went to bugis to eat and slacked around.
After that came home to K.O
Today work was shitty. Thanks cramps. You made me day. I hate you. And me and cheryl got a shock when we get our pay. By the look of how i'm bloggin, do you think it's a good thing? Ya, dream on 1st lor.
Fucking shitty day today. I kinda hate my sip. NO LIFE.
.Wednesday, July 29, 2009 ' 9:47 PM Y
I VERY THE TIRED AH.
Wanna sleep.
I don't like my bf(for now). Pfttttt!
GOODNIGHT.
Oh ya. Meeting my girls tmr. YAY.
I don't like lau sheng lian!(for now)
.Tuesday, July 28, 2009 ' 8:32 PM Y
You peeps wanna know why I love my botak so much? Cause he stayed up till late on Sunday night just because I couldn't sleep. He sang lullabies for me, talked to me, till I was getting sleepy. I am a bad gf cause I wasn't understand enough. I know my baby is tired after booking out. :( Sorry baby.
Why I love him even more, is because the next day he woke up at 6.30 am just to come find me to see a doctor. And I'm being referred to KK hospital for more checkups. I hope nothing is wrong with me. :( After doctor, we came back to sleep for a while and went out again to meet his camp mates.
After his friends left, me and baby went to ps to get his army stuffs, and I brought my baby to eat Billy Bombers. Baby bought many things for me that day also. Muacks to bf! Came home, and rub my baby's botak head, and sayang my baby. And went to sleep at 11 plus. Baby lay down and closed his eyes as I watched him sleep. And this was when I couldn't control myself but cry. I missed baby so damn much. I missed looking at him sleep. I missed his adorable looking face. My cries woke baby up and then again, he forced himself awake to sayang me.
Last but not least, baby woke up to send me to work. I couldn't bear to leave him. And I broke down once I was in the office. The cycle begins. I'm feeling what I felt 2 weeks ago. I've been crying so much. I feel like a big baby. :( I seriously can't imagine what's gonna happen if he goes into field camp. No handphones for a week! I swear I'll go crazy. Army not only tortures the boys, but their gfs too.
And now I'm sitting here, typing out my feelings. Last but not least, I love my boyfriend for who he is.
.Sunday, July 26, 2009 ' 10:15 PM Y
MY BABY IS FINALLY BACK IN MY ARMS AGAIN!
I love you baby, cause he gave me a really big surprise today. Yesterday he said he's gonna book out on Monday morning. But he came to my house just now with flowers and sweets. Awwww, babyyy~ I love you so muchhh!
I was so happy I could finally see my baby boy. He's such a tanned man now, with a fitter body(hehe). And so humsome in his army uniform. Went to inter to walk walk with him. And talked talked talked and in my heart I was so (i have to use this word) fucking happy.
Too bad mum don't let me stay over his house today. :( Said I had work tmr. EMO! But tmr I hope baby can stay over my place. I wanna sleep with my baby again. :(
And peeps, I'm tired. Gotta go! Have fun tmr!
.Saturday, July 25, 2009 ' 3:59 PM Y
Daddy came to pick me after work yesterday. And guess whaat?
I LEFT EARLY FOR THE 1ST TIME YTD.
5.59PM. YAY.
Never felt so happy before. Lol. And stayed at grandma house. Went to the gym just now, ran 2.4km. Lousy. Only lost 50 grams la. HAHAH. Whatever.
Ate a whole crab just now. Tonight my uncle's gonna cook crab. HEHE. Waiting for cousin to come so we could all jump in the pool. WHOOHOOO. I can't wait for my botak to be out. I miss him so much.
.Thursday, July 23, 2009 ' 9:11 PM Y
Hi peeeeeple.
I think everyday I'm getting more and more paranoid. I think I'm going crazy. I think I'm beginning to be so afraid of men. Everytime a man sits beside me, I'll have wild thoughts running in my mind. "Will he touch me?" "Is he gonna do anything?" And I'll start imagining Lots of stuffs. I'm really scared. I am crazy.
And. I hope I don't turn more crazy.
Baby, please save me, by coming back to me again.
.Wednesday, July 22, 2009 ' 8:54 PM Y
TIRED! Did video editing today. Not as bad as I thought. Really fun to do it. But I kinda doze off cause I was really tired. Was late for about half an hour cause of the stupid jam and rain. :(
Actually I have so much things to say but i'm too exhausted. My brain cells are disappearing. Omg. What did I wanted to say?
Forget it. I forgot. But, maybe I'll remember tomorrow? Or the day after?
True friends never fail to forget you. Some just *poof*. Haha. Can't be bothered anyway. _l_ Suck it assholes. That's why people say: True friends are one in a million. Lol.
Baby is coming out soon! And I really can't wait. I miss him. I miss everything of him. Everything. SO MUCH. I hate it when he's not there to advise me, when he's not there to sayang me, when he's not there to comfort me. I need him so badly. I'm almost breaking down. I realised that this world is really so cruel.
Baby please come home to me.
.Monday, July 20, 2009 ' 9:03 PM Y
I am so worn out. Today I didn't really do anything at work. Really nothing except watching Youtube vids. So I felt bored and sleepy. Yawns.
And I am so sleepy cause I didn't have enough sleep. So goodnight. Waiting for Botak to call me and den off I go to sleeep!
I still miss my baby like hell.
.Sunday, July 19, 2009 ' 6:35 PM Y
Boring weekend I must say. But at least I don't have to tire myself out. Just went to serangoon and bought beddings and food for Bogo and Bao bao. Cost $40 altogether. Going broke soon. Argh!Bathed and changed their cage when we got home.
Anyway, what's so gr8 about girls with big boobs? No big deal. Guys are only after them for their body. This is certainly true. And a typical guy who says sth like:"Hey there! Sup! Mind being friends? =)" Walao, please get a life la. Shitty people who just wanna get into those people's pants. DESPERATE. And stop denying cause the fact is there, out in the open.
And don't say you hate desperates cause YOU are one yourself. _l_ I'm fuming.
I'm still fuming.
. ' 12:06 AM Y
Today wasn't so bad. Woke up pretty early(9+) and played with fatty Bogo. Feed him all he snacks. I think he's really happy. And I think I pamper him too much. And he's really horrible. When he's sleeping and you scream in his ears, he won't wake up. But when you shake the container of food, he'll wake up in less than a second. :( What's worse, he'll follow the smell trail of food when I open the container.
Daddy came to fetch me at 11 plus. Came to Grandma house. For the 1st time in a million years, I actually did sth I feared the most-Gymming. Yes, I went to the gym. And whenever I go to the gym, I'll only stay there at most 10-20 mins. Today was different. I ran(plus walking) around 4km. And stayed for more than an half an hour there. Hehe. Baby said he's so proud of me. :)
Cousin came over and we chatted like nobody's business. Time to catch up! Really a nice evening. And talked to baby around 10 plus. Till 11 plus. I miss him. I MISS HIM! I told him I felt so lonely and different w/o him. It's like the bus seat beside me is always occupied by him but now, it's occupied by someone else. He's not there anymore! :'(
And I can't wait for botak baby to be out. Cause I wanna hug him and tell him how much I missed him. And give him many muack muack. Hehe. LOVE YOU BABY BOY. I've been a really good gf(no lying), and will be waiting for you to be out. YAY.
.Friday, July 17, 2009 ' 8:12 PM Y
I was worried sick yesterday. I waited and waited but there wasn't any news from botak head. I called him several times at 9 plus all the way till 10 plus. No answer. No replies. I swear I was going crazy. I was so exhausted. But I lay down in my bed, thinking what the hell baby was doing. Was he injured? Did he exert himself? How is baby? The thoughts almost made me crazy, I swear.
Baby called me at 11 plus. And I was really pissed at him. I didn't talk to him nicely. And I told him I'll ignore him for some time. But my anger only lasted till this morning. I missed him so much. So damn much. I realised, I too was in the wrong for not being understanding. It wasn't his fault at all. I was being too paranoid. I shouldn't act like that. But sometimes thoughts go wild. I'm getting stressed up for nothing.
Anyway I suspect there's sth really wrong with me, internally. But I have no time for the doctor's. :( I hope it's not sth cancerous and can be treated. Really afraid sth bad will happen. :( All I can do now is wait for baby boy to be out. So he can accompany me to the doctor. Sigh.
Today work was alright. Used the mac com to do my video editing. Really noob at macs, but I managed to produce sth at least. And I guess it wasn't that bad, given the fact that it's my 1st time using Adobe Premiere. It's really good to learn sth new. At least when MP starts, I can make use of it. :)
Left at 6. And zoooom-ed all the way home. Super exhausting. Feel like breaking down. And I'm still in pain. Argh! Don't know why is this happening to me. I miss you baby lovey boy. Muack. Really wish I can see you soon.
.Thursday, July 16, 2009 ' 8:49 PM Y
Today was a much better day. Only did video-taping at the hotel once again. I ate the food there like nobody's business and even helped myself to a second helping. Hahaha.
Okay. Went back home at 6(finally), and ate rice. My 1st $2.50 i spent for the day. Lol. If everyday work at the hotel, how nice it'll be? Too bad, it's my last day there today. Tomorrow's a video editing day. Omg. I got a bad feeling about this.
Oh ya did i tell you guys how fun it is to shave someone's head. I shave a part of baby's head and it was funnnnnnnnn-tastic. HAHAHAH. Anyone wanna be bald?
Anyway, I still love my baby! I realised how perfect my boyfriend was. Never screamed at me even though I threw a horrible temper. Talked to me nicely instead. Never made use of me, always so patient, and just so perfect. I mean, he's everything that one would ever have! I love you so much my dear boy! Missing you much botak! Muack! Waiting for his call now. And off I go, tv time!
Pictures and vids!
Lil bro
From left to right(mine, baby's, sissy's, mummy's, uncle's)
Sissy's hammie
He sleeping in his food bowl
Trying to fit his whole body in the food bowl, while eating
Shaving baby's head
Halfway shaved
3/4 shaved
THE OUTCOME
At work
Naughty bogo
Shaving the botak head
Awww, so cuteeee! LOVE!
.Tuesday, July 14, 2009 ' 9:53 PM Y
I feel horrible.
Baby said he was gonna call me soon at 930, but it's already 10! :( I'm being so paranoid. I just miss him so damn much. Feel so lost. Nobody to listen to my sorrows, noone to console me, no one to pat pat me, no one to give me a muack muack to make me feel better:( I wish he will come back for me NOW!
Today I went to a hotel to take video of 2 classes. So I did nothing, but video taping them. Lol. Tomorrow, at least there's the designing of flyer and video editing stuffs to do. If not I'll really rot to death. Hehe. Sometimes I [this was where i typed till ytd, and then baby called me, i forgot I was blogging.]
TODAY.
Went back to the hotel again. Took vids. And used the lappy. Nothing particular. Was asked to stay till 6.45 to do the flyer again. Haiz. Oh well.
AND.. WHY DO I ALWAYS MEET WEIRD PEOPLE ON THE BUS AFTER WORK?! Omg, what did I do? Yesterday there's this man who peeps at my handphone. And he doesn't peep at the corner of his eye. He peeps like damn obviously? Stupid or what? Today there's this man, who talked to me out of nowhere. And while I was watching "How I met your mother" on psp. NO PEACE! And he continued talking to me even though I hinted him I didnt wanna talk by putting the earpiece in my ears. What a pain in the arse.
Anyway, came home to eat maggie. I must save $ cause I'm broke. I still wish my baby was here. I missed you so much, boy. Do you know that? :(
.Monday, July 13, 2009 ' 8:59 PM Y
I broke down. I'm missing him so much. I thought I could control my feelings. It lasted for a whole day. I was still not thinking about it. I almost cried at the bus stop. I didn't like today at all. Not only cause of baby, but because of sth else.
I sat on the bus and this fucking cb(I have to use this word, really) old man, came to sit beside me. And he sat so bloody close to me. And he kept moving his elbow towards me. Sometimes he just pretend to see his phone from his pocket, just to use his elbow to brush against me. I, of course moved till he couldnt even have the chance to do so. But guess what? He moved even closer. And who in the fucking hell takes out his handphone, see, put back, and after 2 mins, takes it out again? The procedure repeated for ALOT of times. I looked at him and gave him the fierce look. I told myself:"One more time, I'll fucking scold you, you fucking pervert big, round fuckface" Well, I didnt get the chance to do so, cause he alighted. I asked myself:"Why am I so dumb? I should have scolded him long time ago! Fuck. I'm so bloody stupid. Now I dont feel satisfied"
When I came home, I broke down. Really bad. I miss my baby so much. I need him. If he was there, he would have protected me. If he was there, he would have bashed that pervert face into pieces. I miss you so much baby. And what's worse, it has ONLY been a day. I feeel like crying again.
Anyway, I kinda miss school. My friends esp. Really wanna see them soon. I love school life, actually.
Baby, come back to me soon! I'll be waiting.
.Sunday, July 12, 2009 ' 3:24 PM Y
Emo.
My bf is gonna go to army tomorrow! And I'm starting my SIP. Which means I can't see him off. But come to think of it, it's not that bad either. Cause I won't have to cry in front of hundreds of people and drag my bf back home. I really can't bear to see my dear by go, and leave me like that.
This whole week I have been spending time with him. Mummy let me stay over for 2 days this week. So yeah, my mum's really understanding and I love her for that. Hehe. Before that, baby have been staying my house for 3 days. Really glad my SIP didn't start last week. Phew.
So now let me blog about what I have been doing yesterday. Went to Novena to eat Buffet with his whole group of friends. Ate till my stomach almost burst. And after that we went to town to walk and slack. At night we went to the night festival. A pity it rained, so we only get to see a while. Took a bus to Sim's house and played RockBand. Hehe. After that came home to baby's place and slept only at 4 am.
I really can't imagine that baby's going in so soon. I'll miss him like crazy! Okay. Any girls wanna date me out for that 2 weeks? Hahaha. :P
Nightmare countdown: 1 day
.Thursday, July 9, 2009 ' 11:17 PM Y
Cried again yesterday. Not because baby bullied me, but it's the thought of him going in the army. I know I'm being paranoid or
exaggerating, but it's really different for me. I've become so dependant on him. It's horrible w/o him for a day. Imagine 2 weeks.
Yesterday was a long cry. The thought of it was unbearable. How am I gonna survive?! I hope I can get used to the army life. I really wish time will pass by quickly. And there, 2 years have passed. I had millions of thoughts. Some nonsensical ones like what happen if baby don't come back for me. *slaps my mouth*. Nobody's gonna pat me to sleep, nobody's gonna kiss me goodnight, nobody's gonna piggyback me, nobody's gonna sayang me, nobody's gonna rub my tummy when I have a tummyache. :( I'm lonely!!
Anyway, went to bugis today to get my smart casual wear. And a vintage bag. Coolxzx. Baby bought me a miniature chloe perfume, a very puny bottle which cost $15. Thanks baby! And a whole set of lashes. And a dress. Hehe. I love my baby.
After bugis, came home to change and left for his place. Ate dinner with baby's family and came home again. And there, home sweet home. Can't wait for tmr. Like totally! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~
.Wednesday, July 8, 2009 ' 11:34 PM Y
Morning was a horrifying experience for us. Let me tell you guys why.. This was what happened..
I woke up at 9.30 and kissed my baby a good morning. Made him get out of bed to do his ebay bidding. Went back to sleep. But my eyes were so itchy and dry. But I still went ahead to rub, even though it was freaking dry(I can freaking feel it), and painful.
The next time I woke up, was around 11 plus, I found my baby hugging me to sleep. I tried opening my damn eyes. And I realised: "OH SHIT, sth's wrong, I can feel it, sth's soooo damnnn weird in there." I took a look in the mirror. And there, I was proven right. My sclera was swollen. And the cornea was sunken it the sclera. So it eventually looked like a "hole" .
I told baby to see it, and we rushed to the hospital. I was whining and tearing. I thought sth's gonna happen to me, and that I'm gonna be blind! Mum had almost the same problem as me a few days ago. And she had to go to the hospital. So how do you think I felt? Lol.
Waited for an hour before we got to see the doctor. And thank goodness nth happened. Just some infection. Scared the shit outta me.
Came home and slacked. And ate golden pillow
Not as nice as expected now. Maybe it's not hot? And went down to eat paddlepop. Hehe. Came home and watched the show on Michael Jackson. I almost teared. How I pity his children.
I remembered that Mj used to be my No.1 idol! I used to dance his moves when I was very young, before I even went to nursery. I miss him. Now that I come to think of it. King of Pop, you deserve this name. You touched people's life. We love you!
5 MORE BLOODY DAYS.
. ' 12:41 AM Y
Hi.
I just came back from watching ICE AGE 3. And guess what?
IT'S AWESOME!
You guys have to watch this show. Freaking worth it. Lol.
BYE. Off to sleeeeeep.
.Tuesday, July 7, 2009 ' 1:09 AM Y
Baby, have I told you how much I need you? Have I told you how much I love you? Have I told you how much I want you?
Well.
I can't live w/o you..
The number of stars in the world can't beat my love for you.
And I want you so much till the day I die.
Sorry for being such a pain in the ass darling. I didn't meant to make you upset with my words. I guess it's all my fault for not controlling my temper. Thank you love, for tolerating me all these while. I know it's not easy for anyone to do that.
I guess I'm getting all worked up because you're gonna leave me for army soon. I'm afraid. I'm afraid I can't cope w/o you. I'm afraid I can't take it. I need you baby. I need you so much. A day w/o you is hell.
Sometimes I ask myself: Why am I hurting this little boy of mine? Why am I taking him for granted? Do i even have the rights to do it?
NO.
So why?
Thanks to Mr Lau Sheng Lian, I've become a better person. No more naughty stuffs, no more bad girl. I've transformed to someone pretty decent. And I've learnt so many things. Like how someone portrays you with the clothes you wear, and morales, and think positively.
Thanks baby for not failing to be there for me, from waiting a few bloody boring hours in school for me, to coming down from BP to AMK just to see me for a while and then go home again. Thanks for not letting me be alone. Thanks for protecting me all these while. I must say you've become another part of me. And I want to be Mrs Lau(haha). I don't care.
I love you so much, boy. You'll be my 1st, as well as last love of my life. Let's make it happen!
.Sunday, July 5, 2009 ' 11:13 PM Y
I really hate my pms. It sucks.
.Saturday, July 4, 2009 ' 9:42 PM Y
I guess everyone yesterday doing the NAPFA had their whole body aching. Yes? No? Well, mine hurts like mad. Haven't felt this for a long time. And this means that it's been a long time since i last exercised. YAY.
Couldn't walk properly. But I still managed to get out of bed and went to central to eat. Oh and today I had my embarassing moment. Mum bought Durian pancakes for us. While we were going up the escalator, I was eating the pancake. I had the first bite and wanted to feed Baby some too. So I thought he was behind me and I turned, and fed the pancake to the aunty behind me. Literally holding the pancake to her mouth and saying "Nah". I swear I was damn embarassed. I told mum about it and she laughed at me.
Oh and there's this really irritating man standing at the dustbin near the durian stall, I think he's crazy. He was holding a phone and talking and what's worse, scolding the same sentence of vulgarity every 3 secs. I mean, there are kids around too. He should get his ass kicked. I doubt he was really talking to anyone. He was holding it for the whole 20 mins and repeating himself.
Anyway, came home and played wii for a while and slacked, changed bogo's cage, bathed him. So nice smell now my darling. Hehe. Love him to bits. Went down with mum, uncle, baby, sis to eat. After that came home. And I am gonna play wii now.
I would like to thank my baby for massaging my aching body and carrying me up and down the stairs today. Love youuuu lotsssssssssssssssssssss!
.Friday, July 3, 2009 ' 11:10 PM Y
Today was a sucky-yet-fun-day. These are the reasons why I say it's sucky and fun.
Sucky:
1stly: Had to wake up uber early for the UP your Service course. And it was a total waste of time. Okay. So we paid $20.50 to watch videos from 9-3. And did some "fun" stuffs on some sort of "booklet"? Wow. All of us were very enthu in the beginning. But as the time ticked by, all of us became restless. The girls(8 of us), drew on papers, wrote notes, and passed around.
2ndly: NAPFA sucked like totally cause we had to wait from 3(the time we were SUPPOSED to start) till like 4+, 5? Niceee. Then we did our stations and waited for a long time also. Especially the shuttle run. It took million of years.
3rdly: 2.4KM run was a killer. My feet were hurting. And guess what? My skin tore. Thanks to the bloody new school shoes I bought yesterday. WOW. And because of this 2.4 km, it ruined my whole napfa test. Bloody hell. And I was reallly unhappy at sth at the end of the run. Not gonna say why, but I was kinda pissed.
Now the fun and happy part:
1st: It's been ages since our class girls interacted so much and sat in a big group during class. The feeling was shiok ok. I really missed those times. :(
2nd: We stuck by like super glue(s). Haha, everywhere we went, we went tgt as a group.(except for the time when my both s friends<--[Names not identified to protect their privacy] went to conduct an orchestra).
3rd: Still stuck by tgt like elephant glue. Waited together, did the stations tgt. And very supportive of one another.
Okay, I had to admit I was really glad we could have the chance to stick like that again girls. I haven't felt this for a long time already and I missed you girls! It's really sad to see everyone of us going for SIP, which means we can't see each other for 3 months. :( Emoooo.
Oh and after napfa, went to take a cab. Waited for 20 mins or more for a cab?!? 3 cabs came for me but a pity, they DON'T accept nets. And I only have 2 bucks cash with me? So I got really irritated. Wanted to sit at the road and cry.
In the end a cab came to my rescue and flew back home. Waited under the void deck for baby. And he came with sweets on his hand. :) Thanks darling boy. And another thing he got me. A sign which says: "Caution! Next mood swing in 5 mins!" Thanks ah baby. Don't worry I will stick it on my door.
And for now, my leg hurts and I wanna sleep.
.Thursday, July 2, 2009 ' 12:18 PM Y
KONNICHIWA! Currently in school now. The website is done, in like less than half an hour? HAHAHA. Okay cool!
I got really cute friends who mistake crab pincers for pinchers. Yep, that's my dear Dian for you. I wanted to blog about it yesterday but it slipped my mind. And this morning my ex(sharina) said she had no googles for swimming. Hmm. Google? I thought it was goggle? HAHA.
Anyway, my tummy is hurting. I hope my perios comes fast and ends fast! It's killinggg meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
.Wednesday, July 1, 2009 ' 10:51 PM Y
Went to eat with the girls and Ms Nat and Ms Cherry in the morning. Ate crab bee hoon. Went back to school after.
Did Joomla! in school. Why do we have to learn Dreamweaver in year 1 when thehy have this marvelous program called Joomla? Joomla is 100000000000 times must faster, easier and more convenient than anything else to create a website.
Anyway, we have to come up with a website tomorrow. Hope we can go off early tomorrow. I'm exhausted! Anyway SIP have been changed to 13th July. I still can't send my baby off to his camp! BOO HOOO. EMOSHIATXZ.
Stayed back in school with nan, cindy, sharina(my lover), and sj. It was nice to have talks like that. Really nice. Came home and played with Bogo cause I missed Bogo so much on the bus. Such an adorable hamster. Wonder what'll happen if Bogo leaves us.
Okay, guess what peeps? I'm exhausted. It's time for my sleepy sleep sleeep. Nitey nite lovelies!
♥ Sharlene
♥ Loving since 29 Nov 2008