♥ IT'S YOU AND ME TILL ETERNITY

.Tuesday, September 29, 2009 ' 9:57 PM Y

Thanks to the people who have encouraged me. Thanks to Shavonne esp for sending me offline msges saying that we can always hang out or I can always text you. You know you're really nice. Haha.

Yesterday I was into the bloody depression mood again and I made my dear boy sad. I'm sorry baby. In my heart, I know I can never be a good gf to you. I've upset u over and over again. I say hurtful stuffs to make you feel horrible. I never think before I say. I'm sorry. I finally realized how much you mean to me. You mean everything. You are my everything. I'm sorry if I cannot be the diamond you're looking for. I am just a piece of rock. And you, you are a gem which everyone is looking for.

I cried when I saw your msges yesterday. I'm touched. I never knew how much I meant to you. But now I know. I am your diamond. I love you Darling. I really love you. We shall stick together till eternity. This I know for sure. And thanks for being so understanding darling. I will be a faithful gf to you. I promise. And lastly, I will be Shane Lau Sheng Lian's future wife. I promise I won't leave you baby. I'm just really scared I don't deserve someone, a gem, like you. I'm scared. And i wish you were here. I wish........

loved

.Sunday, September 27, 2009 ' 10:46 PM Y

I hate the fucking army. It's taking all his time away from me. I don't fucking even have 10 sms from him, I don't fucking have the time to talk, even for 10 fucking mins. Wtf are they doing to him? I get so cb irritated when I talk halfway and he says he need to sleep. That's like so rude of the fucking army. I can't even tell stories anymore. OCS is so much different from the BMT. I hate it. I fucking hate it! I am so alone, so lonely. I am not self-pitying myself, but I feel so fucked up and.. Yes, fucked up is the only word to describe my feelings.

The army is taking away all his time, I don't even know who I can turn to anymore. Nobody cares, nobody can be there for me all the time anymore, and there's nobody I can pour my sorrows to. I hate it, I HATE IT SO MUCH. I JUST FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF.

Now I understand why girls leave their bfs when they're in the army. I fucking know how they feel. But one thing for sure. I AM NOT THEM, and I WILL STICK TO HIM LIKE A FUCKING SUPERGLUE. So people out there who thinks I can't fucking bear with it, GO TO HELL. I will be Mrs Lau, that's one thing for sure.(unless he doesn't want me la)

Anyway, I'm just feeling very horrible right now, so I'm here ranting. I really.. really fucking hate the army. _l_

loved

.Saturday, September 26, 2009 ' 12:56 AM Y

I watched Phobia2 today. OMG. With that biatch whose losing alot of weight now. :( I'm fat. Went to work and got really pissed for some reasons. I can't seem to do things properly. I was looking forward to meeting sharon and she was late! Wanted to watch the Time traveller's wife but fully occupied! EMO!

In the end I bought the tics for Phobia2(no choice, boo hoo!) And walked slacked like a rotten piece of emoshit at a corner, waiting for that woman. When she finally arrived, we went to eat and off we went for our movie. Okay, the movie overall was ok. But it scared the shit out of both of us. 2 girls, watching a horror show. I was basically wasting money cause I was covering my eyes and ears 80% of the time. Sharon is braver than me, omg.

The movie was 2 hours i think? And we headed home. I forced mummy to come back early cause I told her I was scared. She was like: Aiyo, no need scared la.

I called and called and told her not to close the door and stuffs. I am a timid horse(is there such thing anyway?). And I forced myself not to think about the stupid show. Luckily I could bathe in peace cause I know that mum's home. Phew.

And I rweally rweally miss my baby alot. ALOT! Life sucks. Thank goodness my days are occupied. I have things to do! And, anyone interested to go to the navy thing with me? :( I'm lonely. Boooo~

loved

.Thursday, September 24, 2009 ' 9:01 PM Y

I must say these 3 weeks of OCS will not be easy for me. It's only been 3 days and I'm already feeling like a piece of shit. This will be much worse than the 2 weeks confinement during bmt. I miss him so much already. The bloody camp doesn't allow him to talk to me.:( It's taking away all his time from me! It's stealing my baby away!!! I'm not feeling good.

I wish these few weeks will pass really fast. I'm lonely, really lonely. Luckily for me, I have nice friends around to meet up and stuffs. If not I don't know what's gonna happen to me. Thank you my wonderful friends!

Anyway I'm beginning to get really sick during work. Don't know why but all the blame is pushed to me sometimes. Oh well. Fuck it, srsly.

Come back to me baby, quick baby!

loved

.Monday, September 21, 2009 ' 5:23 PM Y

10 days have passed, just in a blink of the eye. Time passes really realy fast when beloved is with me. And tmr he's gonna book in again. :( What worse is that I cannot see him for another 3 weeks. Boo hoooo! I am so emo. I miss him already.

Had been spending all the time we can together. And my sweet sweet boy never fails to send me and fetch me to and fro from work everyday (except for when he plays soccer). He never grumbles about it. Not about waking up uber early, not about the inconvenience of travelling, not about anything.

Baby bought me so much wonderful stuffs. I will always keep it safe with me when he's not around. I love you baby. Love you so much until cannot count. I promise! And sorry for showing so much temper. I know you didnt like it one teeenie weenie bit. I still love you alot darling. And I'm not lying. You are the one who taught me how to love. You are the one who taught me to change to be someone better. And you are the one I strongly believe in sticking to till eternity.

I am the luckiest girl on earth. Cause now, I have everything I wanted. I love you Lau Sheng Lian.

loved

.Tuesday, September 15, 2009 ' 9:17 PM Y

Oh great, I'm sick. Hehe. Baby passed his virus to me. I feel horrible cause I can't eat stuffs which i wanna eat and I'm feeling lethargic the whole damn day. Boo hooo.

Took a half day leave today cause I wasn't in the right condition. Although this whole week I'll be slacking at Holiday Inn. My baby is going back in soon! I don't wanttt! He's gonna be confined for another 3 weeks. Don't likeeee! :(

Anyway, gangsters are out to create trouble for themselves. Loke weixiong, you brought this upon yourself, you joined some stupid gangs and now you are lying in the hospital with a mentality of a 7 year old kid. I guess you'll never be able to recover again. Sigh.

And dong han, please recover from your brain tumor. You've been a good friend, and I really want you to recover.

Days with love was great. I was having pms most of the time and poor little him had to eat it all. Sorry darling. Me bad bad again. My bf is the best bf in the world. He fetches me to work everyday and fetch me from work everyday too. And he pampers me like a princess. I love you baby!!!!!!

Right now, i need rest. My body's aching.

loved

.Saturday, September 12, 2009 ' 5:21 PM Y

My darling boy is sick and I don't like it! I am taking care of him right now. My poor bf is suffering, Anyway, boring weekend! WAtched the gamer show ytd. Not too good, yet not too bad. Alot of nude scenes. Hahah! Kinda gross, come to think of it.

Okay i shall continue to rot to death.

loved

.Thursday, September 10, 2009 ' 10:16 PM Y

Heliewwwwww~ I hate work.

Baby woke up and sent me to work before proceeding for his soccer game with his camp mates. Work was kinda horrible. And yeah. Nothing much to say about work.

My love came to fetch me from work again today. Waited for me outside my office. Hehe. And we headed to Serangoon to get Bogo's food and snacks. Spent around 30 bucks. Went to grab dinner after that.

Bus-ed back to AMKHub and bought movie tickets for the gamer show tmr. Yayyy! Went to Soo Kee Jewellery and baby bought a $200 diamond necklace for me. I feel so loved! MUACKS TO MY DARLING BOY! I love you like there's no tmr baby.

I am the future MRS LAU!

loved

.Wednesday, September 9, 2009 ' 11:58 PM Y

BABY POP LO!!!!

Went for his POP yesterday. Totally worth it. Well done, baby boy! I met up with my future mother-in-law(HAHAHA) at pasir ris interchange. Daddy sent me there. And we took the bus and ferry to tekkong. Reached around 3 and waited until 4.45 before the parade starts. We had the privilege of sitting the VIP seat. Hehe. Was perspiring like mad! Damn hot. And when the parade started, we were so excited!

I was super kanchiong when baby was marching towards me. I was so scared I couldn't take a nice picture. But luckily I did. Hehe. Then there was this time when we were asked to go down to put on the cap for the army guys. Hehehe. So cute my darling. Take pictures like madddddd. Hahaa.

After that we went back and the thing continued and we were so engrossed watching the whole thing. After everything baby came to find us and pictures non-stop again. Hahaha. Baby went back to his camp to take final pictures with his mates while me and his mum sat down and chatted. We were waiting for our dear boy's company to be called. But the paper stated we were only allowed to be released at 8. But at 6 plus baby came to look for us and said we could go. Again, we had the privilege of cutting other people's queue. Baby took his platoon best tag and held it up. We three walked past over a few hundreds of people who were queueing up. The feeling, damn shiok. Haha.

Took an MRT home and ate dinner with his family. Went back to his place and slept. Today woke up and went to work and as usual. Baby came to fetch me after work. Sweet sweet baby love. Went to Bugis and took neoprints and ate. After that he bought shirts and cap for me. Total $ spent on the shop: $91. Went to get my shoes at bugis and home sweet homeeeee~

loved

.Sunday, September 6, 2009 ' 12:40 PM Y

I think the blogger lies with my own com. Baby's com is perfectly fine.

Went over to grandma house to stay o Friday. Thanks Daddy for picking me up after work! Ate and went to gym. I think I'm really unhealthy. I have a lot of toxins in my body. Boo hoo! And what's worse is that my SIP is making me fatter. Cause when I'm tired or have nothing to do, 'll take out the tidbits and nonsense in my drawer and there, munch, munch, munchin.

Oh well. Woke up at 7 plus the next morning. Went to Pasir Ris to pick my loverboy up. Hehe. Took a cab back to his nearby mac Donalds to grab breakfast. Came home and took a really short nap. And went out around 3 plus to Bugis. Met up with Kenneth and Sharon also. Double date! :) Thanks for the present!

Ate at the Japanese restaurant at Iluma. I forgot what's the name of the restaurant. But the food there sucks, and it's so expensive. Went to walk walk round Bugis and checked for my M1 plan. I now have unlimited sms free, free data bundle, unlimited calls to 3 m1 numbers, 100 outgoing free calls, and free campus calls! How cool is that? I can save so much more. Or else baby is going spank me if my bills hit so high again.

We went to take neoprints. I kinda looked horrible cause I had a bad-face-day yesterday. Walked walk around Bugis and ate our dinner and off to desserts! Yummy. We went our separate ways after that. Reached baby's house around 11 plus. Bathed and slacked and slept at only 2 am. Baby woke up at 530 to do his yellow ribbon 10km run at changi prison today. My poor darling is tired so he's sleeping like a pig beside me now. Hehe.

And baby, I'm so proud of you. I was really proud when you called and told me you got the platoon best. You worked so hard for it, I can see. I really love you. And I really don't want you to give up your future because of me. I don't want you to get a miserable 8-5 job in the army. I want the best for you. It's for you, and our future alright? But whatever you do, I'll always support whatever decisions you make. Cause no matter what you do, or become, I'll always love you.

Peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeektures