Thanks to the people who have encouraged me. Thanks to Shavonne esp for sending me offline msges saying that we can always hang out or I can always text you. You know you're really nice. Haha.

Yesterday I was into the bloody depression mood again and I made my dear boy sad. I'm sorry baby. In my heart, I know I can never be a good gf to you. I've upset u over and over again. I say hurtful stuffs to make you feel horrible. I never think before I say. I'm sorry. I finally realized how much you mean to me. You mean everything. You are my everything. I'm sorry if I cannot be the diamond you're looking for. I am just a piece of rock. And you, you are a gem which everyone is looking for.

I cried when I saw your msges yesterday. I'm touched. I never knew how much I meant to you. But now I know. I am your diamond. I love you Darling. I really love you. We shall stick together till eternity. This I know for sure. And thanks for being so understanding darling. I will be a faithful gf to you. I promise. And lastly, I will be Shane Lau Sheng Lian's future wife. I promise I won't leave you baby. I'm just really scared I don't deserve someone, a gem, like you. I'm scared. And i wish you were here. I wish........