.Friday, November 6, 2009 ' 11:36 PM Y
SERIOUSLY MY DAY IS RUINED THANKS TO THE FUCKING CHEEBYE AR*Y. LAST MINUTE CANNOT BOOK OUT. KNNBCCB.
And to someone: Sometimes I feel I have NO freedom, NO life, NOTHING. I can't do this, I can't do that. You control, yes, you take control of EVERYTHING, well almost. What's fucking left of me? So now I'm stuck at home on a bloody Friday ROTTING MYSELF TO DEATH CAUSE I AM NOT ALLOWED TO DO ANYTHING EXCEPT TO STAY AT HOME AND ROT. TO DEATH.
THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR ME.. TOO MUCH. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY LONGER. YOU ARE NOT ME, YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND. I'M SO DEPRIVED. SO LONELY, SO ALONE, AND NOBODY'S THERE WHEN I NEED SOMEOME. ARE YOU THERE? CAN YOU BE THERE? NO.
AND WHAT'S WORSE, YOU DONT ALLOW ME TO TURN TO ANY OF MY CLOSER FRIENDS FOR ANYTHING. YOU'RE EITHER UNHAPPY I TALK TO THIS GUY OR BLA BLA BLA. THAT'S ALL I HAVE, THAT'S ALL I HAVE. YOU ARE TAKING AND CONTROLLING ALMOST EVERY PART OF MY LIFE.
HERE I AM, FEELING SO DEPRESSED I CAN JUST KILL MYSELF RIGHT NOW. I KNOW I'M NOT IN THE POSITION TO HATE YOU OR WHAT, BUT I JUST CONTROL THIS FEELING. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND SHENG LIAN, YOU DON'T, AND YOU WILL NEVER WILL...
♥ Sharlene
♥ Loving since 29 Nov 2008